I’ve been looking online for ear plugs but the type I’m searching for haven’t been brought to market yet.
I’m looking for ear plugs to keep me from hearing the wishes and woes of family and friends. My heart and mind snatch their words and turn them into actionable items…things that I have to do. If there’s nothing I feel I can do, then I add the wishes and woes to my pile of worries. I have worries for myself, worries for those closest to me, worries for others, and worries for the world in general. This pile is growing so huge, it threatens to morph into a mountain. I feel overloaded. I can feel myself holding my breath again. (I’d actually begun to exhale at some point not so very long ago.)
There’s a saying, “if you’re going to worry why pray and if you’re going to pray why worry?” I know this, I know this, but it is hard not to do both overtime. I’m trying to believe there’ll be a lifting, that things will be fine in 2009.
The January blahs don’t help. The Christmas and New Year’s holidays and the various celebrations and gatherings are over until next year. The weather is cold and dreary with dirty snow on the ground and more snow forecast. The days are too short. If I can just hold on, by the end of the month, the days will begin to lengthen. The upcoming historic inaugural events will surely buoy my spirit.
Meanwhile, I’ve got a jar full of cotton balls that will have to do the trick.