Why am I here?

Why am I here?

(Well I know that Mommy and Daddy had some fun but other than that…)


What am I here for?  What is my purpose?

(Am I just another human in the universe?  Am I supposed to be more?)


Why me?

Not that I mind being here.  It’s a good place to be, as good as any I know.  What I’ve been trying to figure out is why.


Think of the odds: that particular man and that particular woman being born and then that particular man and that particular woman being attracted to each other. ..connecting…making love/having sex at the right time for their healthy sperm and fertile eggs to unite with the result that I am here: me,  born health, grew up,  and, thus far, living well.


Here I am.  I am here.  But what does that mean?  I could be anywhere.  I could be nowhere.  I could be angry. I could be satisfied.  I could be loving. I could be hateful.  I could be silent.  I could be loud.  I could be good.  I could be badass (yeah, badass).


Right now – hereA while later – there.  I want to know why.  The answers I’ve been given are not complete.  They all have their angles and explanations but they all lack something. 


So I ponder.  And I continue.


Living the best I know how. Finding purpose along the way. Being more positive than negative.  Doing love and beauty.  Keeping peace.


Happy Birthday to me.

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About Candelaria Silva

Candelaria Silva-Collins is a marketing, community outreach and programming consultant; writer; and trainer/facilitator who lives in Boston, Massachusetts. She has designed and facilitated workshops on a wide variety of topics including communication, facilitation, job search skills, team building, and parenting issues. She currently coordinates the Community Membership Program of the Huntington Theatre Company. Her work as Director of ACT Roxbury was profiled in several publications, including The Creative Communities Builders Handbook. Candelaria’s children’s stories, short stories, essays and reviews have been published in local and national publications and she is an active blogger. Her publications include the booklets, Handling Rejection; Pushing through Shyness: Networking Tips when You’re Shy, Slow to Warm Up or Just don’t Feel you Belong; and Real Questions about Sex & Relationships for Teens: A Discussion Guide for Parents. She has served on the boards of Goddard College, Wheelock Family Theatre, Boston Foundation for Architecture, and Discover Roxbury. She is currently Chair, Designators of the Henderson Foundation.

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